Some days there are just so many things to think about and to do. Where do I start? I haven’t written a proper blog for several days – how frustrating. I just don’t seem to be in the flow at the moment. What to do?
Fortunately I remembered how important it is to sit down and write all the things that are on my mind. Once I wrote down my list I felt a bit better. Then I took it to the next stage and did a mind map so that I could see how all the different things impact on each other. It is often surprising what comes out of an exercise like this.
I looked at what choices are open to me. I realise that the decision over a year ago to give up full-time work and move to the country is a mixed blessing. I love where we live but there are not the (part-time) work opportunities to match my skills. I feel I still have a lot to offer to the work place but I don’t want the high level of pressure I had previously. I want to be my own boss.
Others in my family have been self-employed quite successfully, however I don’t want to take on a lot of financial risk at this time in my life. If only I knew how long I had to live, I could ration my resources accordingly! But, I don’t have that information – and maybe just as well 🙂
I am so fortunate to have such a problem in not knowing how best to spend my time! So many people in the world have much greater worries than mine. I don’t envy their lot by any means. I realise I am very fortunate in my life, having the choices I do, but with choice comes responsibilities. I am afraid of making mistakes that I will regret and so I find myself stuck in indecision.
So, today I didn’t make any decisions. I took some time out and read the papers; watched the football; and did my fingernails. It was a good day!