Ouch! That hurt!

aha!

I had an aha! moment today.

Ever since giving up full time work I have tried out volunteering with the idea that I am offering a service to my community (will all the feel-good stuff that goes along with it).

I have experienced many false starts and have been a little puzzled as to why it didn’t turn out as I hoped it would.

Just recently I have offered my services to another group and gave them a copy of my resume to demonstrate what areas I could be of use.

I received a request to do a job and was very conscious about doing it well. It was then that I realised that I am not truly offering them a service. I am asking them to provide a service to me where I can feel skilled and capable.

I saw it more as a transaction with the emphasis more on what was in it for me!

As I said before, Ouch! But at least I can be honest with myself about it now and hopefully the community group will benefit as well.